Aliveness. Connection. Beauty. Truth.

What I live for. What I heal for. What I dance for.

Growing up, I numbed out.

A little context of my childhood: My parents fought, had a miscarriage when I was young that was emotionally traumatizing, moved a lot, and divorced when I was 8. At the time, I thought I was ok. It wasn't until I started crying in my early 30's when simply learning about the nervous system freeze response that I realized I had not been ok. My truth was hiding.

In the Reichian character structures, I'm a schizoid, which is one who withdraws and fragments under stress, as I learned in Shamanic De-armoring.

Now whenever there is stress at home, mainly conflict between housemates, I want to move. Realizing this is a pattern of mine, and recognizing it's relevance to the schizoid type, has me want to find the harmony, grounding, safety, resource, and clarity within me.

It has me want to commit to staying where I am at least for a set length of time. It has me want to create harmony in all the ways I know how to do: create beauty in and around the house, commune with the land I live on, build trust, friendship and coherence with housemates, lean in to edges of discomfort lovingly and spaciously, and facilitate offerings that help build community in my home and beyond, and that help grow my capacity to be with more of life, so that I can ground and truly enjoy all that life has to offer me. So I don't have to bail when conflict arises, but I can sway like the trees and adjust as needed, continuing to grow.

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