About Me...
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Hello stranger (or friend?)
I am a magical being, in a human body, just like you. I am a weirdo (did you know the original definition of the word "Weird" means "of spirit or destiny?"), and a self-growth nerd. I'm imperfect, learning when to embrace and when to let go of my perfectionistic habits.
I grew up in a small town, scared of all the taboo things in life. In my early 20s I thought I was "simple," had an easy life, and a healthy childhood (I later realized my nervous system went into freeze mode as a child and I actually was not "ok" as I thought I was). I went to school for art because I didn't know what else to pursue.
I fell into ceramics because I loved working directly with clay, and it came easily to me. A career in ceramics did not come easily to me, and after years of working in retail and growing bored of it, I sought out something else. Career night at Boulder College of Massage Therapy was a green light to healing work.
Massage, like ceramics, also came easy to me. I'm a natural with my hands. Turns out touch is my primary love language. Over the next 10 years I would come to realize how physically demanding massage is, and thankfully I was also drawn to energy healing, including Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy. One of my massage teachers told a story about healing his daughter from a traumatic birth by doing craniosacral therapy with her. A couple years later I interviewed a friend who had trained at the Colorado School of Energy Studies for craniosacral, and I didn't consider myself spiritual or religious at the time, but the idea of touching Spirit - connecting to a higher power - resonated with me. One of the centering beliefs in my training is that there is an inherent health that flows through all of life, an orienting life force energy to connect to that will allow the system to unfold and come back to health. Some call this orienting life force "God."
I realize as I write this that I'm still grappling with this concept of God, and I wonder why. Another training I've pursued is Family Constellations, which heals ancestral trauma that has been passed down through our lineage. I certainly have trauma related to the church in my lineage. I didn't know this cognitively until I started asking my parents more pointed questions and learning about the cultural history around the church and my ancestral homelands. And I didn't know the history I carried in my body until people represented what my ancestors went through and I started crying. I still hold the rage in my system, and I'm still learning to work with and appreciate it.
I've been on a journey of accepting, appreciating, and moving through all the emotions. It's a process of surrendering, understanding the nervous system, welcoming vulnerability when appropriate, and befriending emotions - seeing the purpose they serve, and learning to appreciate all of life. T Group, an authentic relating group that launched in Boulder, CO by some close friends, was one amazing practice to help me be more cognizant of and present with all emotions. Being present with the wholeness of life has been a motivator to constantly learn, heal and grow through countless modalities, which I look forward to sharing with you.
This is a first draft bio written amongst chaos in my house and my mind. I hope it serves to give you a sense of who I am and if you'd like to connect with me.
I am a magical being, in a human body, just like you. I am a weirdo (did you know the original definition of the word "Weird" means "of spirit or destiny?"), and a self-growth nerd. I'm imperfect, learning when to embrace and when to let go of my perfectionistic habits.
I grew up in a small town, scared of all the taboo things in life. In my early 20s I thought I was "simple," had an easy life, and a healthy childhood (I later realized my nervous system went into freeze mode as a child and I actually was not "ok" as I thought I was). I went to school for art because I didn't know what else to pursue.
I fell into ceramics because I loved working directly with clay, and it came easily to me. A career in ceramics did not come easily to me, and after years of working in retail and growing bored of it, I sought out something else. Career night at Boulder College of Massage Therapy was a green light to healing work.
Massage, like ceramics, also came easy to me. I'm a natural with my hands. Turns out touch is my primary love language. Over the next 10 years I would come to realize how physically demanding massage is, and thankfully I was also drawn to energy healing, including Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy. One of my massage teachers told a story about healing his daughter from a traumatic birth by doing craniosacral therapy with her. A couple years later I interviewed a friend who had trained at the Colorado School of Energy Studies for craniosacral, and I didn't consider myself spiritual or religious at the time, but the idea of touching Spirit - connecting to a higher power - resonated with me. One of the centering beliefs in my training is that there is an inherent health that flows through all of life, an orienting life force energy to connect to that will allow the system to unfold and come back to health. Some call this orienting life force "God."
I realize as I write this that I'm still grappling with this concept of God, and I wonder why. Another training I've pursued is Family Constellations, which heals ancestral trauma that has been passed down through our lineage. I certainly have trauma related to the church in my lineage. I didn't know this cognitively until I started asking my parents more pointed questions and learning about the cultural history around the church and my ancestral homelands. And I didn't know the history I carried in my body until people represented what my ancestors went through and I started crying. I still hold the rage in my system, and I'm still learning to work with and appreciate it.
I've been on a journey of accepting, appreciating, and moving through all the emotions. It's a process of surrendering, understanding the nervous system, welcoming vulnerability when appropriate, and befriending emotions - seeing the purpose they serve, and learning to appreciate all of life. T Group, an authentic relating group that launched in Boulder, CO by some close friends, was one amazing practice to help me be more cognizant of and present with all emotions. Being present with the wholeness of life has been a motivator to constantly learn, heal and grow through countless modalities, which I look forward to sharing with you.
This is a first draft bio written amongst chaos in my house and my mind. I hope it serves to give you a sense of who I am and if you'd like to connect with me.