Who are you, and what do you most desire?
I desire Freedom.
Freedom to express myself fully, and to be fully alive.
To be, and to express, in alignment with my Soul.
Simple, eh? With a long, complicated, challenging journey to access that after lifetimes of trauma (ancestral and past lives).
What wants to come through me is pure life force energy, and the way that it comes through me is odd to some people, including myself at times. Orgastic energy flows through me and I speak in tongues that I don't understand - this is the most recent and unusual expression, so it's been the most uncomfortable one recently. Paintings come out of me that are beautiful and have an impact on people - this is a fairly easy way for me to allow expression. My body moves with ease and vibrancy on the dance floor in a way that some people would think I'm on drugs (I'm not). In the right context, this is also an easy way to express, and one that brings me great joy and clarity.
I guess in the right context, when a safe container is created, I can allow any expression through me. So what is required to create a safe container?
What sort of container do you require to allow your true self and desires to come through?
In a way, I'm creating a container of safety for myself through this very post. I do not experience this online field to be inherently safe. I do believe there is inherent safety within us, as there is inherent health in everything. What is required within me to find safety? It's a quality of grounding. Grounding into my knowing, into pure Universal energy, into Soul truth.
What do I truly desire?
I desire to turn you on - Soulfully alive. So fully alive, aligned with Soul.
I desire more playmates. People who will be radically honest with me, and be with me in the discomfort when trigger is present, recognizing where they're at and willing to contact something more true. Willing to be with the unknown, and with discomfort. Willing to feel more pleasure, more joy, more aliveness, more beauty. Willing to respect and honor the pain and move with it, and through it.
I desire playmates who will celebrate me in my bigness, and who allow their bigness to come through, not in a power-hungry or power-over way, but in a fully alive way. In a way that honors Truth. In a way that clarifies, that brings more aliveness, connection, pleasure and joy.
What do you desire?
I am moving to Asheville, NC soon, very soon. And living in Bardo is what it feels like sometimes - in between one world and the next. Being here now is requiring patience. As excited as I am to leave, and as sad as I am to leave, I must be with it all, feel it all. Patience to be with the discomfort, to be with the unknown. Unknown of how I'm going to pay for it all. Discomfort of letting go. Letting go of lovers, friends, and clients. Letting go of furniture. Discomfort of driving across country with a cat in my lap. Wait, that actually sounds amusing... I think I'll be ok. As I cry, alone in my car full of stuff, grieving the end of a lifetime, on to something new. I've never done this before. I'm a Colorado native, been here my whole life. Packing up and moving across country... a new lifetime. I'll be ok.
Patience, Dear One. Be with it all.
You are capable. You are safe. You are held.
Follow the whispers of your body,
They will show you how to live.
(Note to self)
I'm Erin Casey, and I touch people. With my hands, with my presence, with contact - physical and energetic. With my art, with my awareness, kindness, ferocity, grace, humor, humility, humanness. I create Source-guided art: intuitive, abstract, bringing the unseen to light. I follow the energy, follow what feels right. Sometimes it's messy and awkward, but often it's beautiful and moving.
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